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All I want is to be who I want to be
To breathe the air that gasp mi free
To live the dreams my mind conceived
To see the world in love and peace

Let us not take love for granted
For many awaits the touch for hopes and inspirations
Dream. Dare . Do
Let the sun burns through the horizon and the stars to sparkle
Face each day with a smle for others
Never let yesterday's disappointment overshadow tomorrow's dreams....

*-=__It is not about loving a perfect person...
...but to love an imperfect person perfectly __=-*

***__________. dreams of the sparkled stars____::***

::_memories unforgottened_::
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December 2007
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Thursday, July 22, 2004

!?!?!? w o r r i e d !?!?!?!

wAhahaz!!!! 2dae was a total wake up call manz!!! CT lesson~ all j2s were called to the hall and Mrs Ho gave an analyse of our mid-yr exam results~ Of cos its not a total shock for mi larz...yesterday all the people who did super badly for mid-yrs were called to see Principal and get leturced alreadi....and im one of them.( apparently the majority was observed to b from Student Council, so tui lian!) Haiz~!!!

But 2dae the impact on mi like greater lehz...suddenly feel so screw up and realli feel the sudden stress that i really have to do something about my sucky results. Especailly when i look at the break down of marks by subject passes and stuff...although i am always in the majority range....but still.....it add up to a total SUX!!! Dunno larz....almost want to break down after the talk...like tis urgency and fear in mi that i'll never b able to make it even is i start mugging 24-7 now.... Veri scared.....tot my O-levels was screwed up enough to end mi in Nanyang when people who used to be around my level haf all proceeded safe and sound to the top 5 jcs....

Haiz...I can't even do well in my own jc....Tink about A-levels where i am in competition with the whole Singapore's smarties from people who are thousand and one times smarter then mi and more hardworking then mi since ages ago....Last time in St'nicks, with lousy results...people always say 'Nvm larz.....Ur school high standard...tis type of result quite normal..Come to O-level then should b better liaoz....' But now?!?! Im becoming bad to worst!!! Im so disappointed with myself =(

REalli veri scared manz~ never felt so scared and urgent for my academic before~ I dun want to retain~ (although the thought did went through my mind before) and even the thought of giving up A's right now and persude somewhere else. Mayb Jc is juz not my cup of tea....haiz...I dunno larz!!!!
Everyone tell mi I can do it wan~ Its whether I wan it or not..But look at the situation now~ I realli doubt it....
Oni abt 7 more weeks to prelims~ Even if i mugg day and night until I hypertension~ I also dun tink i can finish revising all and get realli prepared for Prelims and A's....HOW??? HELP?!?!?!

I dunnO!!! Feel so lost and scared...He's no longer here to pull mi through everything...and i doubt if he ever will b again~ heard he got into some stupid elite scholarship thing which haf to go overseas for training for dunno how long...And plus all those bonds and stuff...haiz...wadever....My greatest worry is still my studies now~ Im scared~ Tink i will still give in my best for Prelims larz....at least I hope i wunt die that badly.....*sOB*

::__. eXquisTic . SoPhiStIcaTion____::
Thursday, July 22, 2004